Looking at the last entry, I have to cringe.
It's. been. too. long.
But I feel like things have been on stand-by for awhile. I'm still looking for that great apartment in Seattle with amazing roommates I know are out there *somewhere*... although some days I believe it more than others. Also pending is my complete involvement in the street ministry working with women in the sex industry. There are just a lot of hoops to jump through to ensure that every one of their volunteers are trained and qualified to minister to the women. Which is funny because I feel like I am none of the above, but I know that whenever God calls us to do something He equips us with the tools to accomplish it. And of course if I ever thought that I had it all together enough to do something in ministry, where would there be room to rely fully on God?
All that to say, I have not for one moment forgotten. In fact I've been thinking about Romania a lot lately. There are specific faces that stick out to me more than others, of course Bernadette being one of them, and many of the older boys I talk to on a regular basis. One of them hoping I would be back sometime in the summer. I kind of spilled the beans and told him I was planning a trip for the month of December. Still have yet to find out how that's gonna play out - and if it was God's idea or mine. It's just so hard to stay away for so long. So hard.
Back to the subject line. I was reading a scripture that is one of my favorites and always causes me such emotion every single time I read it. (From the context of Isaiah 61) Luke 4:18-19: "'The Spirit of the Lord is on me, because he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to release the oppressed, to proclaim the year of the Lord's favor.'" Today it stuck out to me as so obviously my vision for Romania, and newly found passion for human trafficking.
As Christians, God has anointed every single one of us. We have what the world needs. There are no excuses for being silent. None. Even though it may cause rejection or even death, Jesus suffered that and more. Nothing we could ever give up would be equivalent to that. This is all He asks from us, and He deserves way more.
"...he has anointed me to preach good news to the poor..." Romania is one of the poorest countries in Europe. We don't know what "poverty" is. They certainly know what it means to be poor. The theme among the older kids when I asked them what they wanted to accomplish when they were older was simply to get a good job. To them, there were no other options. Their gifts and passions were irrelevant. A job is solely for survival. In my world here in America, I can be anything I want to be, do anything I want to do, and I don't worry about how I am going to get the resources. Maybe that comes from my faith in God, but it also has something to do with all the opportunities we have here.
"...he has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind..." While most in the sex industry are forced, some may say they choose to be there. However, if you are not serving God, you are serving Satan, and he provides no such thing as freedom. Every sin you give into you become a slave to. And if you live in darkness, how are you supposed to see where you are going? Someone is leading you. "Don't you know that when you offer yourselves to someone to obey him as slaves, you are slaves to the one whom you obey - whether you are slaves to sin, which leads to death, or to obedience, which leads to righteousness?" (Romans 6:16) Until we meet Jesus, we are blinded by the enemy. We can't see our sin or how ugly it makes us look and how damaging it is to our soul. We can't see that while we are in captivity. Jesus helps us take the blinders off, and see how broken we are without Him.
"...to release the oppressed and proclaim the year of the Lord's favor." Looking into the eyes of Romanians who have experienced the reign of Ceausescu, you can still see the oppression. I know that God has a marvelous plan of restoration for the people of Romania, and hope for the children there. Favor = an act of gracious kindness. God wants to heal and restore, and I am humbled that somehow I will have a part in it. I feel I already have. And I can't wait to see what's next.
